I am so glad i moved back to Tucson. I have been having such a good time. Keeping busy helps not to think of all the sad things and being around all my friends.
I think i met someone but im defintely not sureim ready to move on. It has been 3 and a half months since Jay passed away and i feel guilty simply feeling anything for anyone else and the thought that Jays family will judge me for moving on so quickly is pretty scary. Not that i'd be moving on, Jay will always be in my heart but we were apart for a year. It still feels like he's in phoenix and im here, a couple hours away. Perhaps thats why i moved back to Tucson. Maybe i am just trying to fill an the emptiness. All i know is that i miss this feeling and i wanna hold on to it.
Other than that things are great. Going to the gym everyday is definately kicking my ass but its well worth it. I applied for a new job at a law firm. They are having me write a big essay about myself. I hate writing about myself. ha ha. but hopefully i get it. The weatheris great here. little showers here and there, mostly cloudy. very nice. i hope it stays this way so i could take my quad out next week. Tomorrow Salt River tubing!! cant wait!!
So i keep coming back to Mindsay every couple years and i read all my posts everytime and i still think the last thing i posted about myself. lol. Well, alot of things have changed and i think im going to stick to mindsay now. lol. it seems alot of people i used to talk to have left.
lets catch up on the last couple years of my life.
i uploaded a new picture of me all grown up. 
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Well, richie and i didnt work out in april of 2008 he was gone.
eli found his soulmate and they are very happy together. we are all still friends.
Shawn married the girl i was calling a whore on one of these posts saying "he'll probably dump her in a couple days or weeks" lol and they just had a baby girl.
When richie left i met Jay. I was with jay for 2 years and moved to tucson, az. we seperated to give eachother time to figure everything out and solve our drug problemon our own. a year later, march i moved back to phoenix and he proposed. i said yes and we were going toget married. ME MARRIED! crazy but it was really truely going to happen and i was so in love. Jay died April 2, 2010 ...9 hours after he proposed to me.
since we had been apart for a year he dated a girl he met through a woman hhe met in Aurora, rehab. The girl was 17. She is now pregnant with Jays son. She found out a two days after jay died. so this is where i am today. Trying to be as possitive as possible and trying to believe that one day things will get better. So here is to a new begining.
RIP James F. Gregory
